Author: S.L. Jennings
Genre: New Adult/Contemporary Romance
Released: 18th July 2013
I can’t remember the last time I felt completely safe. Security seemed more like a luxury to me, reserved for those who were fortunate enough to have picture perfect childhoods. For those who didn’t bear the ugly scars that keep me bound in constant, debilitating fear. I’ve run from that fear my entire life. But when I met him, for once, I couldn’t run anymore.
He scared the hell out of me in a way that excited every fiber of my being. It wasn’t the tattoos or the piercings. It wasn’t the warmth that seemed to radiate from his frame and blanket me whenever he was near. It was just…him. The scary beautiful man that threatened to alter 23 years of routine and rituals, and make me face my crippling fear.
My name is Kami and I am constantly afraid. And the thing that scares me the most is the very thing I want.
***Inspired by true events***
This book was given to me in electronic form by the author in exchange for an honest review.
I cried. I cried again and then...
As you may know I'm usually reading about vampires, werewolves and the like. Where as I'm not strictly "paranormal romance or nothing", I usually do tend to stick with it but on occasion my eye wonders to another genre... Thank god for that.
Having read and fallen in love with S.L. Jennings's Dark Light series I couldn't help but jump on this book even though it isn't anything to do with the supernatural. Boy, am I glad I did. In fact, Jennings could write a book named 'A Day in The Life of 2 Toothpicks' and I'd read it. So I have now resided myself to the fact that whatever she writes I will read..
“Don’t worry,” he smiled, pulling me into the hard warmth of his chest. “I’ve got you. I’ll always catch you when you fall.”
And just like that, Blaine had staked his claim on the untouched part of me that no living soul had ever moved. He had captured every fear, every reservation, and crushed them in the palm of his inked hand.
Fear of Falling is a powerful and emotional story about pain and suffering and hope. It truly grabs you and takes you on an emotional whirlwind that sucks you in, spins you around and spits you right back out again.
Kami has had to deal with a past that has left her broken and she is dealing with it in her own way by steering clear of any emotional commitments and refusing to let anyone in. But her aversion to love is truly understandable given the abuse she suffered as a child. Her past keeps threatening to rear it's ugly head.
"When I told you I wasn't the girl you were looking for, I wasn't lying. I'm not. I'll never be. I can never give you more than this right here. And you don't want more. Trust me; it's not worth the hassle."
Then one night after walking into a random bar to drown away her sorrows, Kami meets Blaine Jacobs. Blaine is a very loveable character, his charm, his wit, tattoos a plenty and his down right sexiness had me swooning pretty much from the off. After a rather sexy incident with some salt and a sliced lime, Kami and Blaine begin to feel a connection to each other. Strong feelings begin to pull them towards each other from the moment they meet and where Blaine is happy to feel what he does for Kami, even with her baggage, kami refuses to allow herself to get too close. Her walls begin to crumble but then she just builds them back up again.
Another thing I really enjoyed in this book was Kami's two best friends, Angel and Dom, who are two great supporting characters and together with Kami they are a strong family unit who feel safe with each other. Safe from anyone as long as they stay that way; just the three of them. All have pretty dark pasts, particularly Dom, but he and Angel give the story some welcome relief with their witty banter and their obvious love for each other and Kami. I warmed to Dom especially, as I think anyone would. Knowing what he's been through, and managed to survive, I would really love him to have his own story and find his HEA. I'm really rooting for Dom!
Instinctively, I reached out and placed my hand on his, causing him to release the strain on his knuckles. I don't know why I did it; there was just an impulse to touch him, to comfort him. I knew what it felt like to be absolutely stripped of control. Our reactions may have differed but the fear, the anger, was the same.
Blaine turned his palm and laced his fingers with mine, his fingertips massaging the back of my hand gently. "Kami..." He exhaled a breath, then his brown eyes were locked with mine. Being that we were so close, our arms, legs and thighs nearly fused together, the moment felt too intimate. I felt exposed, naked and vulnerable under his gaze, but the feel of his skin was a soothing balm on my soul. I could feel my body growing warm and damp, and this time it had nothing to do with a panic attack.
The events of Kami's past and also of her friend Dom are tragic. We know what's caused them to be the way they are but it's only touched on when it needs to be and is written in a way that makes you feel comfortable reading about it. The main focus of the story is about the intense connection between Blaine and Kami and Jennings has executed it perfectly. She has this knack of making you feel everything that her characters feel and it's what makes you fly through her books without being able to put them down and this was no exception.
Fear of Falling is about Kami's journey from a broken victim to someone who finally feels free enough to allow herself to embrace the love that she feels for Blaine and letting herself love and be loved in a way she truly deserves. Jennings has brought us a truly emotional story not only about survival but also about letting go and by doing so, two people finally find the strength to love each other.
Another highly recommended read by S.L. Jennings.